Liham ng Pag-ibig

Mahal ko,

Sa bawat pagmulat ng aking mga mata inisip ko ikaw sa tuwina. kahit iguhit ko man ang pag ibig ko sayu magkapantay parin ang pag ibig mo at pag ibig ko, di ko mapigilang sabihin sayu araw2 na mahal kita or "I love you" Uu! Gasgas na nga yata ang salitang ito ngunit sa tuwing naririnig ko ito sa mga labi mo lalong tumitibay ang pag-ibig ko sayu..animoy parang nasa malapit kalang..

Mahal na mahal kita hindi ko lubos maisip kung pano ko na kayang maghintay ng napakatagal para lang marinig ang isang matamis na "Uu" laban sa maraming hindi..ngunit plano iyun ng Maykapal at wala akong karapatang tanungin Siya kundi malaking pasasalamat ko at minahal mo rin ako. Na kahit ipagtagpi tagpi pa ang kayamanan sa mundo ay hindi mapapantayan nito ang isang kagaya mo, mahal ko akoy naka tingin sa bawat pagpatak ng oras,minsan may luha na biglang nalalaglag dahil sa pangarap na sana man lang ay mahawakan ka at makausap ngunit salamat sa Dios ay panalangin din ang sagot ng aking kalungkutan na araw2 ay dinadalaw ako..gusto ko ito kahit masakit..ito na yata ang sinasabing hahanap hanapin mo kahit masakit dahil sa lungkot..ngunit mahal alam ko tayo ay hari ng "Cool" at "Chill  ka lang mga katagang nag papangiti satin mga daliring araw2 ay nagiging koneksyun ng magkabilang mundo natin, bago ako magwakas, mahal ko malapit na nga ang araw ng pag iisang dibdib natin akoy nagagalak at di mawari ang kasiyahan kahit na sa isipan ko ay ginagawa itong katutuhanan at actual na nangyayari sa isipan palang ay di ko na mapigilan ang aking kasiyahan lalo na kaya kapag dumating na ang araw na pati ang langit at Dios ay nakangiti na nakatanaw sa atin habang pinagiisa ang buhay natin..akoy iyo at ikaw ay para sakin.

No Boyfriend Since Birth

I remember way back in High school, I and my friends took an oath not to engage in a relationship while studying. I took that promise by heart and I am very determined to fulfill it. I manage to finish my studies and enjoyed being a young professional without engaging in a relationship . How did that happened?

Someone even told me she will build a monument for me because of my status. My classmates accused me of being lesbian because they haven't heard that I had a boyfriend ever. People also said, I have very high standards. But the truth is, it is a personal choice.

I choose to move in the times and seasons of my life. I strongly believe that "there's a time for everything, a season for every activity under heaven" (Ecc. 3:1). Every chapter of my life has its own season. While in school, I choose to focus in my studies while enjoying my youth through building friendships and involving in the community I used to belong. In my case, I used to be very active in the church. As a teenager, I also had several crushes waaaaaaaah.... c'mon guys its normal to be attracted to someone. I am not that abnormal as what other people think. Suitors came, but i choose not to entertain. Mind you, some are really good guys (guys from the church even), but I know in my heart its not yet the time.

I have goals as a single person and that is to land in a good career, travel (the world!), meet lots of people and to become an international preacher (haha). I got all those wild dreams when I was in college and I'm very determined to fulfill them. And oh I almost forgot! Get married to the right man when I'm tired of being single. I also have this concept. "as long as my friends are single, then no pressure!"

I experiences the quarter life crises in between, several days I would cry and cry and cry because of so many reasons. Wiki said, the quarter life crisis is a period of life ranging from twenties to thirties, in which a person begins to feel doubtful about their own lives, brought on by the stress of becoming an adult. For me, majority is still unable to reach the things that I want to achieve - growth!

I can say I passed the season of adolescence to being a young adult. I don't have any regret, not even once for not engaging in a relationship for the past XX years! I have enjoyed a lot being single. Enjoying while waiting. Fulfilling my dreams while waiting. Travel while waiting. Hang out with friends while waiting. Enjoying my salary while waiting. Read and read and read while waiting. Serve God while waiting. Yes, there are difficult times in between but I made myself so loaded I almost forgot that I'm waiting. Waiting for what? Waiting for the right man and right time.

To those who are going through or experienced the same situation, I want to say that I am so proud of you! Keep doing and pursuing your passion. Take your time, so what if it takes like forever. Keep your head high with a humble heart. Make use of everything you have now in a wise manner such as your salary, energy and time being a single person. Sooner or later, you'll just meet the biggest surprise of your life - your LIFETIME PARTNER (just like me)!